jc life is so tiring and im afraid i could not take it.






weekend - played soccer, swam and most of the time doing pi. next weekend will also be spent on editing final pi. my pi got rejected and i changed my topic to conservation of food. spent hours in front of com, and luckily with the help of few others, i managed to complete it. another hectic week ahead of me, soccer after sch on monday, doing econs after sch and meeting tuition mates and kelvin ng on tue, wed spent mugging and thursday doing gpp draft1. friday is labour day and it shud be a day out with 0905! (:



finally soccer training starts tmr, hope its as tough as last time, so i could train up my 2.4km. and I heard there's some swine flu outbreak, hope it doesn't affect the newyork trip that im going in june!

this week wasn't that great, got scolded,slacked chionged hw. and i think im bit siao as im applying for the isle china trip, which will take up alot of my time. really hope i could get in though. its not for the sgc, but it really interests me alot and i guess i like to do these stuffs, helping others is meaningful.

today was special, everything went quite smoothly. bio prac was okay, got selected for health rep, and played frisbee during pe. we went kopitiam for drink and dinner after pe. first time going as a class seh. and heard they are going out next fri as its labour day! (:




Life's simple, u make choices and u don't look back.

School was long, tiring for these 2 days. totally flunk my bio test and was quite down and discouraged my some remarks made by some teachers. I didn't know some jc tchers so look down on weaker students. got back my chem test results yesterday, got 18/30. but got suan-ed by my chem tcher lar.



i got 18/30 and its " Great! I'm very pleased! "

chee kit got 20/30 and the remarks is " below my expectation of you. you are capable of much better. "

wth lar, its like super kan shuai me lor. combine chem cannot take H2 chem meh. nvm i gonna pass my promos and not let her laugh at me.

its cca day tmr so i will end at 230. and i do not have cca. finally an early day! wooooooots (:

wish me luck in surviving 2 years of hell in jc and not retain.

it would be a miracle if i pass my bio test tmr.

its been a hectic week, tests, hws, tutorials and chionging of pi. thanks to good fri, i could have a little rest. went soccer with 4g ytd, went dhoby to eat pastamania and movie-ed at vivo. i just miss the times when we are together, having so much fun with them. i hardly had so much fun in jc as its super busy nowadays and i still do not have good frends in jc except for marists. watched fast and furious 4 , dinner and home sweet home.

studied with dean today for a while in sch and phoned my mum to fetch me after that. she said okay then after i got in the car started kpkb lar. wth lar its like not willing to fetch me say so lar in the first place, no nid kp so much. i just cant stand her at times, so unreasonable and always thinks she's right and dun allow me to argue back. fk sia.

and i got bio and econs test again on this week. need mug again tmr ):

i have to wake up almost everyday this week at 630! ny meeting today and tmr, extra econs lesson on wed and lesson on fri all starts at 730. gonna die due to lack of sleep lar. 7am is like the time where some of my frends sleep and they wake up at the time i end sch. so envious lar, if only i chose poly from the start. after i got my results i only had jc in my mind, ruling out poly totally. since i've made my decision, i will not regret and will perservere the 2 or 3 years in jc (:

michelle tan took 2 of my colour earsticks today and talked to me nicely bout some stuffs. i think i shall be guai from now on and put transparent earsticks in sch. she said that she catch my earstick everyday coz she still cares for me -.-

anyway, maths test was okay, chem test was kinda doable for me despite the lack of time. pw was slack as usual as i had not even start on my pi yet. deadline for draft on thurday and i gonna try start later in the night. chinese was tc (talking cock) session and went str8 home after that. asked my dad to fetch me coz im too tired to take bus.

gonna get an hr sleep before my dinner. bye~

Today was a real bad day. totally flunk my maths test, failed to understand most part of chem lecture and totally cant concentrate in econs tutorial. luckily, maths class test tmr is postponed to next monday. if not it would be worst.

went back MARIS STELLA with some 4g ppl to collect olvl cert and testimonial and saw quite alot of teachers. i just don't like my olevel cert as there isnt any A2s on it ): slacked in mshs and helped kow yew kiat with some stuffs and off to dinner. i really missed my sec sch life, had so much fun back then. like what lsp told me today, maris stella is much better and relaxing than jc's. i totally agree with her lar! i really missed the time when i play soccer everyday in sec2, chionging pool and lan in sec3, going singpost to eat every other day in sec4. card games were once an addiction, especially big2 and bridge. anway im in jc now, so i just have to focus on my work and not think too much bah. hope there's time in the future to meet up with sec frends often bah. someone pls organise soccer and outings when everyone's free (:

anyway this part of my testimonial that makes me laugh, coz i doubt it's even true at all.

"Blven is a conscientious student who is not afraid of putting in the extra effort to achieve good results. he has the ability and maturity to approach any problem analytically and logically. his understandin and grasp of concepts have improved remarkably during his four years in the school. he tirelessly strives to do his best. his leadership skills in group dynamics draw alot of students to work with him. he does not believe in giving up and never teries of asking questions whenever he is in doubt.

Blven takes great pride in his work and always pushes himself to complete his work on time. the decisions he makes show his maturity and instead of worrying over failed attempts, he never gives up trying. he has the ability and a way with words to express his views clearly, both verbally and in writing.

Blven is very mindful about how how to speak and behave in school and in public. he does not fail to have a smile for everyone. his cheerful disposition has earned him many friends among the pupils and teachers alike. he dedicates a great deal of his time to his schoolwork. blven is not one to be found lacking in knowledge or compassion."

too good to be true eh? how i wish i was so good. (:

Im tired. jc life is real tiring. sleeping an average of 6hrs a day is really not enough for me and i'm struggling to stay awake during lessons. now, even coffee everyday has no effect on me ):

anyway, its gonna be real busy from now on. i got maths test tmr, chem test next week, bio test the following week. dateline for draft of pi is next thurs and i have not even thought of the topic to write. was slacking the whole of pw lesson today. we had to write gp essay today and i simply have no idea how to write. wrote the introduction only and stoned till end of lesson.

And i simply dread the feeling of going home alone and being alone in an empty house. i don't know why but i just hate being alone, and feeling so lonely. i will be v down when im all alone. i just need someone to accompany me and be there for me ):